gratitude to the Bay Area

Comment now » // January 19th, 2009

I am so very grateful that I have moved to such an amazing area…The Bay Area.  Serisouly, the people here are amazingly good souls.  After living in Los Angeles for 6 years, I sometimes felt bitter and jaded because so much of that area is filled with lost souls.  Don’t get me wrong, I met great people there, but a lot of people become quite self-absorbed there and very flaky and not great friends.  I was one of them at times, I will admit that.  But here in SF, it is different.  The energy here is so palpable and I love it.  We had a beautiful housewarming/birthday party the other night and the turnout was amazing!  We somehow crammed everyone into our house and had a great time!  Thank you to all my new friends from Berkeley and the Hooping Community for coming by…I never thought I would meet so many great, quality people in such a short time here.  Plus we have some friends that we already knew in the area who we are stoked to be living closer to now!

I sometimes wonder if my dad has drawn me to this area because it is obviously so good for me to be here now.  We spread his ashes in the Bay almost 9 years ago and every single time I drive over the Bay Bridge, I think about him.  I can feel him here, this was his favorite place to be.  He lived here for many years, so as a child I was able to visit and have fond memories here…and now here I am…living a great life, meeting awesome people, growing and evolving, etc.

In fact an old friend of his dropped by my party that night and we started talking about him to a few of my friends that were there…all of a sudden this song came on my playlist that was on shuffle….it is the song I listened to over and over again when I came back from watching him die in a hospital in Arizona 9 years ago….it’s “My Weakness” by Moby and it’s sort of angelic sounding.  I remember being on the plane and listening to it over and over again and feeling him so strongly.   Whenever I hear that song I usually cry…but the other night when it came on I didn’t say anything and just let it wash over me as my dad’s friend raved about how wonderful my father was and how proud he always was of me…and how very proud he would be now.  It was an incredible moment.

That whole evening really started this week off right…a really damn good week it will be….having a fabulous party, Obama’s Inauguration tomorrow, starting school back up the next day and my 33rd birthday the day after!  Then I am going to be starting a much needed detox soon which I am looking forward to blogging my way through.

I am not feeling that well right now, so I am allowing myself to rest and not feel guilty about it because I need to be as healthy as possible starting this term…it’s going to be crazy busy and I need all the help I can get.