Comments on: an insecure, whiny post http://www.jensanity.com/2009/01/13/an-insecure-whiny-post/ make of yourself a light Sun, 29 Aug 2010 19:55:32 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 By: Mica http://www.jensanity.com/2009/01/13/an-insecure-whiny-post/comment-page-1/#comment-23 Mica Fri, 16 Jan 2009 18:12:49 +0000 http://www.jensanity.com/?p=111#comment-23 It seems through the years after reading your blogs and sites that you are a person that needs to be in constant "motion". It is not a bad thing, just how you are comfortable functioning. Maybe meditating isn't for you, if you really needed it, you would do it, maybe that is something you can do later when you do have the one job and are more settled in life. I thought that since we live it such a great place to explore that we'd be hiking all over the place, I am disappointed that we always end up staying at home, but it is what works now, we are too tired to go out and hike. Someday we'll go hiking, skiing, camping etc, and I know it will fit into our lives eventually. With you not feeling like you're like your hoop-mates, I don't think you would be on the Allstars if you weren't good enough, or good looking enough, just think about what you have done and what you are doing. I mean you are going to school, dancing and working, that is such a full plate, I am very impressed. Some people can barely work and go to school. You lost 17 lbs, that is awesome! No one practices at home as much as they should! You're not alone on that one. It's great that you can express your feelings and admit that you are not up to you're own expectations, that's more than most can admit. I don't know, I think you are being too hard on yourself, you are an amazing woman. Maybe writing a schedule out and hanging it somewhere you would see it all the time would help you do things you want to do. Make it large and colorful! Guess that's all I have, just some thoughts that I had..... Look at what you've done.....(acting, school, jobs, life) you're accomplished a lot, maybe write them down on a list and add to it as you have more. Or a list of things you want to do so you can cross them off as you do them. Hugs to you.... Mica It seems through the years after reading your blogs and sites that you are a person that needs to be in constant “motion”. It is not a bad thing, just how you are comfortable functioning. Maybe meditating isn’t for you, if you really needed it, you would do it, maybe that is something you can do later when you do have the one job and are more settled in life. I thought that since we live it such a great place to explore that we’d be hiking all over the place, I am disappointed that we always end up staying at home, but it is what works now, we are too tired to go out and hike. Someday we’ll go hiking, skiing, camping etc, and I know it will fit into our lives eventually.
With you not feeling like you’re like your hoop-mates, I don’t think you would be on the Allstars if you weren’t good enough, or good looking enough, just think about what you have done and what you are doing. I mean you are going to school, dancing and working, that is such a full plate, I am very impressed. Some people can barely work and go to school. You lost 17 lbs, that is awesome!
No one practices at home as much as they should! You’re not alone on that one.
It’s great that you can express your feelings and admit that you are not up to you’re own expectations, that’s more than most can admit.
I don’t know, I think you are being too hard on yourself, you are an amazing woman.
Maybe writing a schedule out and hanging it somewhere you would see it all the time would help you do things you want to do. Make it large and colorful!
Guess that’s all I have, just some thoughts that I had…..
Look at what you’ve done…..(acting, school, jobs, life) you’re accomplished a lot, maybe write them down on a list and add to it as you have more. Or a list of things you want to do so you can cross them off as you do them.
Hugs to you….
Mica

]]> By: admin http://www.jensanity.com/2009/01/13/an-insecure-whiny-post/comment-page-1/#comment-21 admin Thu, 15 Jan 2009 10:02:09 +0000 http://www.jensanity.com/?p=111#comment-21 than you to both of you for your kind words/thoughts....I am taking it all to heart! than you to both of you for your kind words/thoughts….I am taking it all to heart!

]]> By: Allison http://www.jensanity.com/2009/01/13/an-insecure-whiny-post/comment-page-1/#comment-19 Allison Wed, 14 Jan 2009 23:11:39 +0000 http://www.jensanity.com/?p=111#comment-19 One of the (many) things I love about you is your sensitive soul & your openness about your vulnerability. We live in a space that is often telling us sternly, "Go go go!" & we're trained to examine the success of others & desire it - not only that, but to discount ourselves in the process! & that's what is what is so great about something like hoopdance. You bring your own 'thang' to the table. You bring your entire unique background with you. You bring those years in LA, your drama experience, your family life, your renewed health, your psychoanalytical studies ;]...everything. All those add up to one awesomely specialized equation (Comfort Sacred!) & you're right, remember to breathe. This too shall pass. One of the (many) things I love about you is your sensitive soul & your openness about your vulnerability.

We live in a space that is often telling us sternly, “Go go go!” & we’re trained to examine the success of others & desire it – not only that, but to discount ourselves in the process!

& that’s what is what is so great about something like hoopdance. You bring your own ‘thang’ to the table. You bring your entire unique background with you. You bring those years in LA, your drama experience, your family life, your renewed health, your psychoanalytical studies ;]…everything. All those add up to one awesomely specialized equation (Comfort Sacred!)

& you’re right, remember to breathe. This too shall pass.

]]> By: Durgasakti http://www.jensanity.com/2009/01/13/an-insecure-whiny-post/comment-page-1/#comment-18 Durgasakti Wed, 14 Jan 2009 21:04:10 +0000 http://www.jensanity.com/?p=111#comment-18 All I can say is wow! I can identify with a lot of what you have written. Living in SF/bay area there is a TON of franetic energy there. It is not a calm palce. That could be infuencing you. So much of what we feel is really energy bubbling up and we give names/write stories around it, but its really all energy. Well, what can that do to help?? It’s been helpful for me (as a woman who struggles with a lot of similar issues as you) to have discovered Hinduism. I'll share a few things that have helped me. Ayurveda is one major thing-the ancient Indian healing/diet system of life.Which says: Every body is different, veganism just wont work for some bodies. Some need meat and lots of food, others need little and veggies and vice versa. Beyond that I have worked so hard to establish a routine for my self of self care. I prioritize things like sleep, relaxation, time to myself etc regularly and that requires saying NO to people and situations and taking that time. Second is acceptance of myself. Sounds so simple but without that foundation, we will always be swinging back and forth with highs and lows. How to do it? For me personally I have realized I am connected with source and I am source. I forget and have to remind myself daily and hourly I am source. And lastly, the belief in hindu non dual tantra that we are all one. This has helped me so much especially when dealing with other powerful women. Seeing themselves and me as divine incarnation’s goddess in various forms is very liberating. I see myself in others and others in myself. You can visit yoga mandala in Berkeley for courses/workshops/yoga/books/there is so much there! xoxo ps I just got my first hoop and hoopgirl dvd and have started to hoop yippee! All I can say is wow! I can identify with a lot of what you have written. Living in SF/bay area there is a TON of franetic energy there. It is not a calm palce. That could be infuencing you. So much of what we feel is really energy bubbling up and we give names/write stories around it, but its really all energy. Well, what can that do to help?? It’s been helpful for me (as a woman who struggles with a lot of similar issues as you) to have discovered Hinduism. I’ll share a few things that have helped me. Ayurveda is one major thing-the ancient Indian healing/diet system of life.Which says: Every body is different, veganism just wont work for some bodies. Some need meat and lots of food, others need little and veggies and vice versa. Beyond that I have worked so hard to establish a routine for my self of self care. I prioritize things like sleep, relaxation, time to myself etc regularly and that requires saying NO to people and situations and taking that time. Second is acceptance of myself. Sounds so simple but without that foundation, we will always be swinging back and forth with highs and lows. How to do it? For me personally I have realized I am connected with source and I am source. I forget and have to remind myself daily and hourly I am source. And lastly, the belief in hindu non dual tantra that we are all one. This has helped me so much especially when dealing with other powerful women. Seeing themselves and me as divine incarnation’s goddess in various forms is very liberating. I see myself in others and others in myself. You can visit yoga mandala in Berkeley for courses/workshops/yoga/books/there is so much there! xoxo ps I just got my first hoop and hoopgirl dvd and have started to hoop yippee!

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